regalitie | ❄ 𝑶𝑷𝑬𝑵 𝑷𝑶𝑺𝑻.

i can be bold sometimes! especially with you.

you keep me cool during this awful heatwave.

you're making me flush and i haven't even stepped outside yet.

does it always get this hot in california?

hehe.

it's usually a little cooler here in the city but there are definitely periods of low breeze and high heat. drink a lot of water!

oh, goodness. i don't think i've ever experienced such a thing.
i'll alternate sips of water with sips of iced coffee.

do you remember your home being cooler?

oh, yes. i don't remember ever feeling quite so hot in my life.
i remember warm days spent in the sun, but cooler in the evening, sometimes enough to pull on a sweater.

that sounds nice and comfy! i feel like your world was way less hectic than this city.

i remember it being a lovely, peaceful place — a bit idyllic, perhaps.
sometimes i can't help shake the feeling that i'm letting people down by being here, though. like i've forgotten responsibilities i'd promised to uphold.

i know you must be important wherever you're from. and i'm not just saying that!

[ his heart aches thinking about mat leaving but he swallows that down. ]

you can't be blamed for something that's been erased.

perhaps...

all i know is that i've gained so much more than i could have possibly lost.
i can promise you that, milo.

i wouldn't trade anything in the world for this, mat, even if it's not easy.
you're important to me too.

i love you.

i care about you so much, mat.
you're amazing.

[ but love. love is scary. he worries about saying it and he worries about not saying it. ]

( mathias is unafraid, too uncertain about far too many things in his life to not feel certain of this. he knows milo feels the same way; he can feel it in every single thing milo does for him. )

milo...

you'll make me blush again.